Bonding with Mom and James

Iggy was so tiny.  I had a lot of water in my body.  I complained to the doctor but they said it was just a “normal” thing.  It didn’t feel normal to me.  I feel very weird after 4 days.  True enough, there is water in my lungs.  My blood pressure shot to 225/120, they had to do magnesium therapy.  That was very very awful.  I felt like dying.  But, I was very glad that you came out very healthy.  The suffering was nothing compared to the knowledge that you did not suffer.  When I had to go back to the hospital for the post eclampsia, I brought you with me so our bonding would not be cut off.  But, you are not getting milk from though and you starved to 4.0 lbs.

When you came out, I was very sure you had my fingers.  You have Dad’s ear.  You have Dad’s lips.  You have Dad’s jaw.  You have Dad’s head.  You have Dad’s cheek.  You have Mom’s eyebrows and eyes.   You have Dad’s nose.